The biggest trick that any writer can pull off when it comes to their finished product…is making it look like it was anywhere NEAR being ‘easy’ to write it! It isn’t. Hehehe, getting your readers to think that you just sat down at a keyboard with a cup of tea or coffee, and tapped into some level of genius to type something out from beginning to end? Yeah…that’s not how this works.
(Cue snickers and laughter from the writing community.)
Obviously, this isn’t true. Sure, it becomes easier through practice and discipline, and we get used to the habit of expressing our thoughts in this particular way…but there is nothing ‘easy’ about writing a story. Not at all. From conception, to creating characters, to plot devices, to dialogue…it takes a LOT of time and patience and skill to pull off a story from beginning to end. You have to juggle a series of different talents all at once, and once you’re finished…you’ve got to edit it and start all over again to catch anything that you may have dropped along the way. Yeah, to say that it’s easy to do is not only a mistake…it’s an outright lie for many of us.
Because of this pleasurable, self torturing, practice that we love so much…it can sometimes cause our most ambitious ideas to seem more intimidating than they have to be. At least that’s been my experience so far. There are stories that I wanted to write years ago that still intimidate me to this day. Every time I consider sitting down and just getting it started, I almost get overwhelmed with anxiety about how I’m ever going to create that story, those characters, and actually get it right. I get intimidated by the time I’m going to have to put in. Intimidated by the emotion I’ll have to pour in. Intimidated by whatever research I might have to do for the details. I feel the story idea looming over me to the point where I’m forced to back away from it, and like the procrastination savant that I am, hehehe…I put it off until later. And as we all know, ‘later’ often never comes.
This week, I’d like to spend a few moments talking about writer confidence, and maybe clear up the smoke and mirrors aspect of possibly beating the intimidation when it strikes.
For me, personally, it doesn’t always take some massive new project to intimidate me into shying away from putting the work in. Sometimes, it might just be a particularly important chapter that I’m worried about getting right. Or a specific scene where a big secret is revealed, or a dramatic argument or major event has to come along to change the course of the rest of the story. As I mentioned in a past article, sometimes I know exactly what I want to say and how I want to say it…but there’s a ‘hesitation’ involved anyway. For me, that’s WORSE than writer’s block! LOL! I can deal with writer’s block. But fear or lack of motivation? Nothing makes me feel more helpless when it comes to my writing.
Also, there are times when the intimidation isn’t even creatively inspired. Sometimes I have to ask myself if I’m going to have the time and the focus to really dive into this new chapter/story the way I want to. What is my work schedule like? What are my friends and family up to? Will I be able to remove myself from the world for a week or two to get this as well polished as I want it to be? Some of you guys have kids or partners that need attention and quality time. Some of you have a busy few weeks of work ahead of you, and you know that’s not going to leave you with a lot of energy to write when you come home. There are more factors that you can ever imagine that have to be shifted around in order to concentrate on the task at hand. And that can cause a writer to hesitate as well. It’s nothing to feel bad about. It happens. And if you decide that this isn’t the time for you to jump into that particular project…then so be it.
However, you can’t let these things destroy your writer confidence.
See…being intimidated by a story, chapter, or important scene, in your project isn’t going to be like an explosion at the base of a tower, causing it to crumble to the ground all at once. It’s more like an aggressive army of termites. It erodes the foundation in secret. You start making little excuses for why you can’t jump into it today. You start getting randomly distracted by things like getting your house cleaned, or a sudden Netflix binge. “I’ll do it later” and “I’ll get around to it when I have more time” become your mantras, and before you know it…it’s six months later and you haven’t so much as brought it up on your laptop once in all that time. Don’t believe me? Look at your files right now? Do you have any lingering projects that you were going to ‘get around to’, and haven’t? When was the last time you opened that file? It might be longer than you think. Hehehe! It usually is for me.
So how can we fix this?
I think the first step in starting this new project or getting a previous project back on course comes from asking yourself…’What am I so afraid of?’ When I mention fear, I’m not talking about outright TERROR or anything! Hehehe, it’s not that serious. But something is stopping you from sitting down and typing out the thoughts and emotions in your heart. What is it? What’s bullying you out of tackling the next chapter? Find out what is giving you the most hesitation, and give it some thought. Loosen that knot. And be brutally honest with yourself. Maybe you don’t like where the story is going. Maybe you’re bored with it. Maybe some negative comments on the last story made you doubt your abilities as a writer. Maybe you have such high expectations for this next chapter that you worry you’re not up to the task? Whatever it may be…find it, face it, and think about how you might be able to get around it. Diagnose the problem so you know what to fix. As long as you keep putting it off or making excuses, the actual issue that you might be trying to avoid is going to remain vague and unclear. In fact, you may deny that there is a problem at all. “I can’t write tonight because…it’s National Hot Dog Day! That’s all.” Hehehe, yeah, that’s not a reason.
The second step? Take a leap of faith. Find a few minutes of peace, open that file up…read what you’ve read so far, maybe doing a soft re-edit and making a few changes along the way, and then move right into the next sentence without hesitating. You just read what you wrote, your memory’s been refreshed, you’ve got the file open, your fingertips are touching the keyboard…do it. Right then and there. Pick up where you left off and just start writing again as if it had only been a few hours since your last entry. If you’re starting something brand new from scratch, and you’re not sure how to begin…stare at that blank scene and think about ONE thing that you want your readers to know about your main character. And then create an opening scene that displays that one trait or attribute (or flaw). Put them right in the middle of it. Like, let’s say that your protagonist is madly in love with some boy on the basketball team, right? Your first sentence…
“I don’t even really like basketball all that much. But I show up to the high school games for ‘him’. Only for him.”
This is an opener that you can easily build off of. That little bit of text both gives answers and creates questions. The answers? This person is probably in high school. He’s infatuated with someone on the team. He doesn’t like sports. The questions? Who’s speaking right now? Who is ‘him’? Why is he so infatuated with him? You’ve immediately planted the seed, and you know have avenues to pursue your next few sentences. You can get into the thoughts and feelings of the main character, or you can describe the beauty and allure of the boy he’s watching on the court. You end up writing a few more sentences to complete your thought…and that thought leads to a few more thoughts. You’re already a few sentences deep into this new project, right? You might as well follow that path to the next logical idea. And when you complete that thought, you open the door to two or three more things that you might be able to add. Before you know it, you might be 1000 words into your project, with enough inspiration to keep moving forward. Sometimes, getting your brain to operate in that creative mode will create the momentum needed to get things started, and far enough along to actually enjoy yourself again instead of worrying about whatever problem you had getting started in the first place. Believe me, it works. But only with practice.
I feel much more confident when I play around with my stories and sort of feel my way through it. I have to put things into motion, and that takes a push and a few extra nudges when I feel myself getting distracted again…but once I actually start writing and get my wheels turning again, the intimidation of taking that project head on ceases to be a problem. I think about what I’m feeling, and what I want a certain scene to accomplish, and I just keep feeling my way around until I feel good by what i see on the screen. That doesn’t mean that everything I write is going to be flawless or error free. I don’t even worry about that part. The emotion is what matters most. Capturing that moment, and bringing it to the people reading. Most of the time, I’ll start a sentence without any idea as to how it’ll end. The same way that I might have a spoken conversation with a friend. I don’t plan what I’m going to say ahead of time, or what he/she will say after that, and how I’ll respond. Stay in the moment. That’s important. more times than not, the intimidation you feel is coming from this magnificent vision of what the final product is going to be. But you haven’t built it yet. Don’t start worrying about the dangers of life on Mars when you haven’t even figured out how to get there yet. Hehehe, one brick at a time. 🙂
I’ll just start writing a sentence, let the emotion sort of swirl around in my head for a bit, and I may stop halfway to stare off into space for a second or two, trying to find that one magic word to add next…and then keep going. Don’t worry about it being good enough. Worry about it being honest enough. Take one step, and then another, and then another. Learn to trust your instincts. The only way to do that is by putting your instincts to work for you. They’re like any other muscle in the body. You have to give them a workout in order to strengthen them. Build them up, sentence by sentence, through little leaps of faith.
With time and practice, it’ll become second nature to you. Your confidence will grow, your instincts will become more involuntary…and then…there will be these truly magical moments when you truly feel in tune with what you’re doing. You own it. You start typing and you feel as if you’re in complete control of everything that you’re doing, to the point where you might get in the zone and turn out half a chapter in one sitting. Let me tell you, that’s the greatest feeling in the WORLD! There are nights when I feel like I’m playing this keyboard like a piano at the Philharmonic! And when I click that ‘save’ button…I’m truly proud of the work I put in, and get excited for the reaction I might get back from the readers.
Now…mind you…I might come back the next day, look at it, and rip it to pieces again, because we’re all our own worst critics. LOL! But at least I put the work in, and I got it done. That hesitation that I felt because I was intimidated by my own expectations of what I wanted the story or chapter to be didn’t beat me. It didn’t bully me out of my creative expression, and once I actually made the decision to get it started, it wasn’t anywhere near as scary as difficult as I thought it would be. But it will be a leap of faith. Each and every time. That’s not going to change, but you learn to deal with it. And before you know it…you’ll have much more written than you ever though possible.
As always, I hope this article helps any of you guys who might be struggling with a few ‘I’ll get to it later’ issues as well. Whether it comes to you starting something new, getting back into something old, or even going back to edit and ultimately publish a story that’s already finished…you can get it done. Just find your earliest opportunity to sit at your keyboard, and dive right in without waiting. You’re all creative people, and you’ve spent a long time honing your craft. Have enough faith in your instincts to carry you once you make the effort to get started. Start writing, and let your instincts take the wheel from there. They won’t fail you.
Take care! And I’ll seezya next weekend!